06.03.07
image persistence
i have not been able to get the scene out of my head for the last couple of days. it’s hard not to think about it while driving, but even elsewhere, i just keep thinking of how the body looked, how the collision would’ve played out, etc. i typically don’t dream about things that happen during the day, so i’m not really afraid of nightmares, but during the waking hours i have what is actually in front of me to distract my mind’s eye — when i go to bed at night, there’s only darkness on which to project the scene, over and over again. i can’t seem to muster up the suspension of disbelief necessary to create fear — i mean, there’s nothing supernatural about traffic fatalities. but there is an overwhelming sense of slow, unshakable horror, especially when i think about the bloody stumps with what i assumed to be white bone in the center.